How to Entertain Yourself - Don't Ask Me.

I'm a dramatic person. And it's all purely for my own entertainment. The more bored I am, the more dramatic I get.

I told this fact to my coworker the other day and it was again brought up recently while chatting with one of my best friends.

Everything seems like the end of the world to me. High school graduation. College graduation. Finding out a crush doesn't reciprocate my feelings. Not being famous by age 25. Quitting college track.

In reality, hardly any of those things matter anymore. Granted there are some things I'm still wallowing in pain from, but for the most part my expectations of life ending have all fallen short.

How do "normal" people occupy themselves without being dramatic? The trend among my college friends/peers and others my age is to get married. While I'd like to be married (and not in general, but to specific people - and no I'm not going to be a polygamist. This just means I have one or two people in my life that I would like to marry...though one of them may be James Franco), I know it would be a cop out for me right now. I want to be married RIGHT NOW only because I'm bored and lonely - not because I'm currently dating the man I want to spend my life with [I'm not sure how to win over the object of my desires...].

So the next thing on my list is to get my Master's degree. But in what? Right now I'm thinking creative writing...but 6 months from now that could change to journalism. Or magazine writing.

After that comes volunteering. That's a great way to spend my time. But with which organization? An all-cat shelter? A wild animal refuge? A varied-pet shelter? Working with underprivileged kids? Old people?

Ok, so I'll just fill my time with writing. What do I write about? My boring life? My unachievable dreams? My desire to adopt a guinea pig and a cat named Paul? Where do I write? My blog? My script? A shared blog? My journal?

Ok, forget that. I'll just do some crafts. Do I work on crocheting? Embroidering? Gluing those seashells to that frame? Taking pictures? Painting? Sewing? Jewelry making?

Alright. I've resigned to laying on my bed with my eyes closed because there are too many options out there and they all sound great! And feeling like my life is going nowhere and the world is ending because I have nothing to do, that boy won't date/marry me and I don't have a computer!!!

How do people CHOOSE? Everything I've mentioned I've at least dabbled in and loved it. I can't choose one thing over another because I want to do them all and I want to do them all right now.

Writing seems to stick out the most because it's the only thing on the list that could potentially make me famous (if I was able to hone in the skill well enough - ha).

You know who I want to be? The author of hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com. She can now afford to blog for a living. And she's hilarious.

Well, I'm off to entertain myself with some Hulu.com on my friend's computer while she's out of her apartment. I'll try not to think of those big life dilemmas for a couple of hours.